i started doing...

as a follow up to my last post...i pushed myself to go to church on Sunday even though my hubby had to work. it was my first time doing anything alone with the new baby. so it was me, my 3 year old, and my new little man enjoying a morning at church. aside from my nervousness driving there, due to the constant worry that my daughter was going to poke her brother in the face the whole time, and my daughter acting out a bit after church...it wasn't too bad. although, i don't know how single mothers do it. i'm am so blessed and so thankful i was able to pick up my hubby from work at the end of the day and be able to share the kiddos with him. they are a handful. more so my daughter than the little guy though...who would have thought? the baby is a breeze compared to her. well...anyway...the message was awesome!

we were in Luke 5...the focal point was on the story where Jesus tells Peter to cast out his nets (plural) and Peter casts out his net (singular)...we learned that partial obedience to God, hinders the full magnitude of blessings He wants to give us. Peter was told to cast out his nets. Peter cast out one net, allowing us to see that he doubted Jesus. but the Lord, as merciful as He is, allowed fish to fill that one net, it was overflowing. and to imagine, what would have happened if Peter had cast both nets as he was told. it makes me stop and wonder what blessings i have missed out on because i only partially obeyed what the Lord was telling me to do. i can't be afraid. i can't doubt Him and His ability to lead my life. i need to be casting both nets at all times, instead of keeping a safety net for my own personal comfort. it's hindering blessings...i don't want that. i want as many blessings as the Lord is willing to give me. who wouldn't? this is something i need to work on. when the Lord is telling me to do something, i need to do it with a whole heart, without doubt, and no fear. if He is leading me to do something, i have to remember He will be with me the entire way, and that it will all work out.

stop saying...start doing

the two most wonderful blessings i have ever been given in my entire life

so...there's this bible verse that's been sticking out to me. it was brought up in church yesterday and for some reason i can't get it out of my head.

"Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. And let us consider one another in order to stir up love and good works not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as is the manner of some, but exhorting one another, and so much the more as you see the Day approaching." Hebrews 10:23-25

i'm convicted to spend more time in fellowship and less time to myself. i need to quit fearing and get back to the place where i felt like i was pleasing God. i've become what my pastor calls a 'pugh potato'...i'm there on Sundays, i "do my time"....but what more? i used to be involved, i used to spend my spare time with God...having another child shouldn't hinder that, it should make it all that much more important. i need to start living the way God wants me to live. not only for me, but more so for my children.

time to get on with things

procrastination. its an ugly word. it's the reason there are piles of clothes on the floor. it's the reason i have files of papers that need to be sorted through and bills that need to be paid. but worst of all...it's the reason my bible study lesson sits undone on my nightstand and my bible sitting on top of it has barely been touched in the last month. for the last couple weeks i've said, "tomorrow...tomorrow i will get back into the swing of things. i will do my bible study, i will clean up, i will embrace my life as a mom of two..." yata yata...but every morning i wake up and i'm "too tired." or "i don't feel good." excuses... excuses. last night i sat for a while, glancing every so often at my bible, wanting to do my bible study, but i caved into laziness instead and quickly fell asleep. but this morning i was suddenly overcome with this realization. yes i've been tired and i've felt yucky and i've been busy with the new little one, but none of that is enough to keep me from my relationship with Jesus. i am procrastinating. and that is wrong. i know i should pick up my bible, but instead i pick up the remote. i know i should take my quiet time to pray, but instead i sleep. i am breaking that cycle today. it's been a month and a half...it's time i get back to my life. embrace it and love it. i'm blessed beyond words and i need to take every moment i can to thank my Jesus for that.

my kiddos :)