the baby didn't want to play...haha

well, we arrived at the doctor's office this morning in hopes of finding out if our new little addition to the family would be a boy or a girl...but no such luck. this baby did not want to cooperate. instead it turned it's back to us, only to position itself a couple times just right to kick at the ultrasound wand thingy. this child would not spread it's legs enough for us to see in between them and quite honestly looked a bit upset at the whole situation taking place. i did however see little fingers and arms moving, little bones, little head and belly and it's little tushy! ...cute little thing this child is. we didn't see it's face or a profile, the baby wouldn't even cooperate for that...but the doctor said he/she looks healthy and all the measurements are good! so praise the Lord! all you ever want, as a parent, is a healthy baby. we will be happy whether this baby turns out to be a boy or a girl. hopefully we will be able to try again before my hubby ships out, but if not, i have some cute ideas for how to tell him while he's away! ...in the meantime, here is the only picture we could get today. enjoy!

little baby #2

head and arm

blessed hope

"For we ourselves were also once foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving various lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful and hating one another. But when the kindness and the love of God our Savior toward man appeared, not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to His mercy He saved us, through the washing of regeneration and renewing of the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us abundantly through Jesus Christ our Savior, that having been justified by His grace we should become heirs according to the hope of eternal life." Titus 3:3-7

"For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men, teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly in the present age, looking for the blessed hope and glorious appearing of our great God and Savior Jesus Christ, who gave Himself for us, that He might redeem us from every lawless deed and purify for Himself His own special people, zealous for good works." Titus 2:11-14

...as you can tell i read Titus a couple nights ago and really liked it. next on my list through the Epistles is Philemon. i have to say, the Apostle Paul was one heck of a writer.

belly is growing!

this was at 16 weeks

God moment

i logged onto facebook this morning and one of my friends had posted this as their status: do not be deceived: "evil company corrupts good habits." 1 Corinthians 15:33. immediately it was one of those 'alright God, i hear you' moments. for the past week or so i've been waring with myself, between what i know God would want from me and what my mind tries to justify. i've been going back and forth between, "well, if i know that i'm following the Lord and i know how i'm supposed to act, then being around this person shouldn't affect me." and "God wouldn't want me to keep company with someone like that...regardless of how close we are." when i read this scripture it was like the nail in the coffin. i can sit there and justify and come up with bogus reasoning, but in the end God speaks to me through scripture. and it's up to me whether or not i follow His will for my life. i have to say, i do not want to go against God, so my only other option is to do as He says. even if that means doing something difficult. no matter how close someone is to me, if they are a bad influence, a corrupting influence on my spiritual walk, i should depart from that and surround myself with those that will help me in my spiritual walk. i should do that anyway. i will make it priority to stay away from those that are in love with the world. instead i will surround myself with those who are in love with the Lord.

i may not understand....but God has a plan

i recently had another go at the er. fun. i got stuck and poked and made to wait a couple hours in what was probably the most uncomfortable bed in the whole world with an iv hooked to my hand while being told to 'relax'. ya. easy for you to say. earlier that day i had "stroke like symptoms" so of course being pregnant and only twenty-three the smart thing to do is go to the hospital. well, i'm stubborn, so i waited it out a while and called my doctor who eventually told me to go to the er. i hate the er. it takes forever to get called back, and then once you get back there it's like they just hook up an iv and leave you in the room for what seems like an eternity. well after a few hours at in a cold room on a rock hard bed, i was told i have migraines and that the symptoms mimic a stroke. ...and you couldn't have told me this sooner? why did i have to lay in here hooked up to an iv while me and my unborn child pretty much froze to death?! long story short, i have to see a neurologist and make sure its nothing more. sigh. so tell the pregnant woman, "don't stress, just relax, but by the way you have headaches that make you feel like you are having a stroke...but don't stress." i was doing pretty well until i had another face numbing incident yesterday. it's a weird feeling and i don't like it, especially if i start to feel dizzy. but as i sat there in church trying to calm down, i was reminded that i have a purpose. God has a plan for me. so all of this is happening for a reason, i may not know what the reason is, but i know there is a reason. so i am trying to find comfort in that. i want to be an instrument for the Lord. i want Him to be able to use me and work through me, and the only way to do that is to open my heart up and allow Him to work. whatever that may be.

my beautiful daughter

Without a doubt, she is the most beautiful gift God has ever given me!

what...??? 14 weeks...really?!

i went to the doctor today because i recently found out i was pregnant via home pregnancy test. as it turns out i am already 14 weeks along and my due date is January 30th. crazy. it's strange going in for your first prenatal visit and finding out you are already starting your 2nd trimester. i had calculated best i could and honestly thought my calculations were a little overshot, but as it was pointed out by the doctor, i was only a couple weeks off. so, with that, baby number two is on the way! i am very excited, as is my hubby, and our daughter. she keeps telling me how she is going to hold the baby, and feed the baby, and put the baby down for a nap...basically play dolly with her new brother or sister. i love that she is excited though. i'm doing everything in my power to make sure she is a big part of this whole experience. she can't wait to hear the baby's heartbeat, or see the baby on the 'tv'. she's so cute. this whole thing is a little nerve racking though. the idea that come October, my hubby will be shipped off to boot camp and job training for 6 months...meaning he won't be here for the latter part of my pregnancy and the birth. i know God will work everything out and i know i will have my wonderful family surrounding me through it all. i can't believe we'll have a new addition to the family in a matter of months. so amazing!