refresh

so after much procrastination i have finally taken down all the Christmas decorations. it feels so refreshing actually. endless possibilities are within reach as soon as you let go of the past. in a way, even though the new year is well in motion, every time i walked into the living room and saw all the holiday decor, it brought me back to the end of last year. today, once everything was clear, the furniture was placed, and the carpet was no longer covered in glitter, i felt this overwhelming sense of freedom. it was like i could breath again. which i know sounds really strange since we are talking about little snowmen, santas, and an oversize fake tree covered in glittery non-sense. it was just a daily reminder of the past...i'm so ready to just embrace my present, but every time i would see the tree and decorations it was like i was pulled back into last year. memories...good and bad...feelings, thoughts...yata yata. jumble really. i like to remember the wonderful things in life, the moments that counted for something and helped bring me to where i am today. the negative i like to toss out like an old pair of smelly sneakers...but for some reason, even though you've tossed them out, every time you pass the trash can, you can still smell them. it's not until you get rid of the trash completely, that you are able to forget about them. in a way, that's what taking down the decorations meant for me. getting rid of last year completely...well...expect for the good memories of course, and moving on with whatever great adventures there may be waiting for me this year.

Jeremiah 29:11