DaiLy ReMiNdeRs

Kailyn came up to me and started to take off my slippers, i went "Kailyn, what are you doing? Mommy is wearing those...". She took both of them off and grabbed one of my feet and i said, "Kailyn, what are you doing?" and she pulled out a baby wipe and said, "I'm washing mommy's feet." ...at that moment, all i could do was think of Jesus. I'm reminded by the Lord everyday just how blessed i am to have my Kailyn girl.

OuTdOoR AdVeNTuReS

we went to the park today to have a picnic and let kailyn run around! she had so much fun! i haven't seen her giggle and run around like that since we've moved here, that made me so happy to see her happy like that. it made me think that maybe i should take her to a park at least 4 times a month, i could even put her in her stroller and make it a walk outing. poor thing, she's 2 and she's been cooped up in this apartment for a while, i think its time we start exploring the town and giving her some outside enjoyment. we could even go up to the campus and walk around. haha everytime we pass by kyle field she yells "go aggies wall!!!" she's so cute. i'm having a lot of fun spending time with her and today has to have been one of the best days since we've moved here!

TiNy ThiNgS

me and kailyn had a good round of singing princess songs the other day, it was so fun! some times i really like to just act like i'm her age again and enjoy life the same way she does. it makes me feel like i'm young and innocent again...no care in the world. nothing to worry about, nothing to keep my mind preoccupied. i love moments like that. she'll ask me to come dance with her in her room some times, i get the same feeling when i follow her in there and twirl around with her. that smile on her face makes me just fall in love with that feeling. it's beautiful.

something i didn't plan on having a problem with was balancing my love and attention between my daughter and my hubby, but lately, as it was pointed out to me in a late night disagreement, i have been focusing much more attention and love towards my daughter. who knew it would be so hard to notice the line? i figured if i started leaning more towards one side i'd realize it right away and just revert right back to the middle. yeah...not so much. i really need to sit back and re-evaluate how i'm handling things, because the last thing i want to do is neglect my hubby. i want things to be wonderful between me and my hubby so i definitely need to do something about this. maybe i need to be a little more spontaneous and a give him more kisses during the day. or maybe i need to lighten up and realize i'm not going to be perfect at this whole stay at home mom thing and just enjoy time with him during the day. yep...that sounds good.

PRaYeR iS GooD

so after much thought and prayer, i've decided to wait on the whole going back to school thing. it will happen, i know that for sure, i just don't think right now is the time. i need to be a good supportive wife to my hubby finishing up his degree. the last thing he needs is me competing for study time. i need to be here to make things as easy on him as possible so he can focus on his studying and work. i'm happy with that, because now i'm back to my original challenge anyway. i'm learning slowly to embrace this time as a stay-at-home mom. it's becoming something for me to work at, i'm developing a routine. i hope to have this mommy thing down to an art form. almost like a dance, something that looks so fluent that others can look at me and say, "wow, she's a great mom!". i envision myself placing a hot pan of dinner on the table, turning around and grabbing the high chair in a single movement, putting it in place and quickly lifting Kailyn into her chair, shortly followed by me serving the family their dinner. i know its a little far fetched, but i have the hot pan of dinner and high chair part down already, the rest needs work. seriously though, i want to be an amazing mom and the only way to achieve that is through practice. i look forward to every day with my little one, she's the most fun i've had in a while!

WheN DoEs ThE AppLiCaTiOn PeRioD EnD???

so i'm feeling kind of weird because my hubby, along with thousands of other college students, are starting the new school year tomorrow. this is the first semester i have not been in school, so this feels a little strange to me. i have to say i'm feeling a little left out. i know i'm trying to embrace this whole stay at home mom thing, but there is such a big part of me that just wants to finish school first. i want to be in school...i know i'm being selfish, but its so hard to watch everyone else around me to go back to school while i spend my days cleaning the apartment and being a mommy. not to say i don't love spending time with my daughter, i just feel like i have so much inside of me, so much of me still wants to learn and grow. i'm trying to be patient. i know the Lord wants me to go back to school and have a career, i feel it, i feel this tug at my heart. but i don't know when. i don't know where or how. i just know its there. i want to go to A&M so bad! to be able to go to school with my hubby and graduate from the same college would be awesome, but i don't know if that's where the Lord wants me to go...and i don't know if i could get in. i'm going to try to apply again for this spring semester coming up, just to see if the Lord is leading me back to school now, but if not, then i will know if i don't get in. it's just so hard for me to feel like i should be in school, while at the same time feeling like my daughter needs me to be with her right now. i could do both, its definitely possible. i just have to wait and see if the Lord wants me to do that. my hubby wants me to go back to school, he believes in me and my goals and dreams. i love him for that. with his support i'm sure we could make this work. i guess i need to start working on my spring application!

RaiN

today me and Kailyn sat on our patio and watched the rain. it was so peaceful just watching the rain fall and feeling the slight breeze in the midst of the humidity. i watched her run around and giggle every time a rain drop fell on her. and she would stick her hands through the railing and let the rain clean her hands. the moment was so innocent and so sweet, i couldn't help but smile. it's times like that moment, i realize just how little Kailyn is. i love that i have this time to enjoy my daughter while she is still young. it is so special and so amazing. sometimes she will just stop in the middle of playing and or running around giggling and she will just smile at me and every once in a while she will give me a hug and thank me. she doesn't have a specific thing to thank me for, she just says "thank you mommy". i love that. i love that she appreciates me. i couldn't ask for a better payment for what i do every day.

i LoVe My LiTTLe FaMiLy

the Lord has blessed me with the most wonderful husband and daughter. i praise Him.